wha havent been on my veri own webby for like a week? things still look the same here, on this website i mean(OBVIOUS!) anyway, been kinda tired lately. havin late nights, NOT STUDYING, but watching soccer ! hahahah anyway, did try to study man. hmm by the way Arsenal just clinched the title on Sunday. bleahhh.. yeah alright just popped in to say hello to myself. got to go man. to study or sleep watever. see where my body goes. lol. bye

yo. today was slack. tmr is going to be slack 2. by the way, i'd really like to thank YingLi for the hitchhike. **Thank You!** was late for my paper, and as i was running from sch's bus stop to my building, which is so darn far, yingli was in the taxi and she immediately told me to get up the taxi and so i managed to get there not that late. im really thankful for that man. probably one of these days got to give her a treat or something as a way of thanking her.. hmm. exams Exams eXams exAms exaMs examS EXAMS!! coming......!! argh stress. our fren KIT is now at Thailand ! wow, he's there for some cycling competition, he's LEAVIN' ON A JET PLANE. thats what he messaged me on the afternoon when i was having my freakin test. without him around certainly got kinda decent .. haha as in no pervertic jokes and "lai le lai le" ..lol. anyway KIT, if you see ma entry for u when u're back, make sure you get me some of the stuffs from Thailand which I have already emphasized alot alot before you went.. haha. anyways, bon voyage to him. all the best. and WIN SOMETHING BACK. glory to sg. shant blog much, just here to express something out. so i'd better get on my way to revisions. dudes. bye for now. got to go study. sheeeeeeesh. byeee.`:DDD :DD :D

reports, project, tutorials. ARGH. none completed. thankfully all underway. :D

as promised, one of the meaningful song's lyrics i am posting. enjoy .. :)

Bread's diary.


I found her diary underneath a tree.

and started reading about me/

The words she's written took me by surpise,

you'd never read them in her eyes.

They said that she had found the love she waited for.

Wouldn't you know it, she wouldn't show it.

When she confronted with the writing there,

simply pretended not to care.

I passed it off as just in keeping with

her total disconcerting air

and though she tried to hide

the love that she denied,

wouldn't you know it, she wouldn't show it.

And as I go through my life, I will give to her my wife,

all the sweet things that I can find.

I found her diary underneath a tree.

and started reading about me.

The words began stick and tears to flow.

Her meaning now was clear to see.

The love she'd waited for was someone else not me.

Wouldn't you know it, she wouldn't show it.

and as I go through my life, I will wish for her his wife

all the sweet things that she can find

all the sweet things they can find

we're weird beings. at a point of time when people completely ignores us, we call them cruel.

please.. dont allow me to fall back into u. please.. leave if you dont have the intention to. please.. dont come back when i least expect you. please.. let me go.. when im not ready to. everything seems to be as per normal since she left my life. yes, it was normal, it was like lifeless. recently, she took the initiative to talk to me on msn. i was shocked and happy at the same time. i know im being to sensitive on my part. but can i help it ? no. its not my fault. im born like that. sigh. how i wish i could tell you i want you to be part of my life. i know its impossible for us to be together, not ever. for some reasons, its impossible. whenever i think of her, i feel down. i dont know how to react. nite.

mixed feelins'

many times i wished i could tell you that i still love you and i still miss you so much, but i didnt. i wished i could tell you that you are still the only one who've opened my heart and how much it hurts to let you go, but i didnt. im starting to realise that you are already gone away from me to go on to do greater things than love. you have already gone on to search for your happiness elsewhere and how i wish i could tell you that im still there waiting for you. everyday. every single day. hoping we'll be together again. i'll be there for you.

Bread-Dairy.

look here, my mum's connected the line again. she's always threatening me. i know her too well. haha. :PpP. anyways, you guys can contact me thru my hp now. isnt that great? well, weeks been tough and slack though, i cant fight myself from being lazy and guilty at the same time. i failed my quiz. things are on the decline. been so lazy that i cant touch a single book in a week, and every effort to do so keeps me thinking that there are better things for me to do. how ? bleah now who cares, probably my first fail will be a lesson learnt. IM TOUGH. hehe. alright man. probably i wont be updating for quite sometime because of the coming tests and exams. dont be expecting daily updates, cuz' i wont be doing so, probably once a fortnight. yeap. and a big Thanks to the whoever people who are reading my diary. despite all the craps i write here. haha. signing off.

well, week was fine. everything went slower in pace. dont know why ? went to visit uncle.. today. he looks peaceful and there on his plate it engraved the words from the bible. Psalms 23.6. "surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." I found it meaningful of course. and may uncle rest in peace forever. :D hmm i got kinda pissed with my mother. she apparently cancelled off my phone line. just simply because i refused to pick up her phone. shit, right ? bleah.. who gives a damn i need no one to contact me anyway.. i can no longer stand her childishness already, so i had a tiff with her this morning .. argh. i hate that. i dont like her man. her attitute is worse than anyone's. sigh. can forsee hows the future gonna be like.

yeah. test is over .. theres still 2 coming up next week .. so shant really slack for now. its still studying. why my life is all about studying man ?! sheesh. i dont like it. i need my weekly dosage of soccer and i have been deprived from it for a week already ! luckily im gonna haf soccer lessons this week, and for all AvG members, this weekend's the last training.. oh man. gonna miss trainings.. yeah .. but i cant be a procrastinator, i shall prioritise my schl work fer now. and probably concern about other stuffs, other time ! yup. till then. cya all.............

someday we'll know, if love can move a mountain.
someday we'll know, why the sky is blue.
someday we'll know, why I wasnt meant for you.

you had someone better planned ahead for you. I wasn't worthy enough. all the best, :D. duddde... its been tough recent days. revisions piling, tests are charging my direction and problems after problems occured with me and my friends. well, i m not really sure what happened between them. one's struggling for a break up with his girlfriend and another had problem with his parents. oh man, life's been tough for a teenager like us. yup, truely speaking. this is the part we grow most. and in times of trouble, be of good cheer, always. good night people. im off to mugging. heard some really good songs recently, meaningful enough to set people to tears. shall name them sometime when im free ya. laters.

Son By Four - Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry didn't mean to call you
but I couldn't fight it.
I guess I was weak,
couldn't even hide it,
and so I surrendered
just to hear your voice.
Don't know how many times I said
I'm gonna live without you.
And maybe someone else
is standing there beside you,
but there's something, baby,
that you need to know.
That deep inside me,
I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you,
it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasy,
the courage that I need to live,
the air that i breath.
Living without you,
my world's become so empty,
the days are so cold and lonely,
and each night I taste,
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you
I'm feeling better everyday,
that It didn't hurt me
when you walked away.
But to tell you the truth,
I couldn't find my way.
And deep inside me,
I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you,
it's all that I'm asking..