周杰伦 - 枫

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影 我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明 就像美丽的风景 总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我 我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁 只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念 我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边 北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶 却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念 为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间 两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面 我要的只是你在我身边

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影 我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明 就像美丽的风景 总在回忆里才看的清

在山腰间飘逸的红雨 随着北风凋零 我轻轻摇曳风铃
想 唤醒被遗弃的爱情 雪花已铺满了地 深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

the ideal christmas' eve - in this life, again. ever so ironic.

okay, this struck me today while i was on the train. the lovely miniature pine tree decorated with orange, blue and yellow lightings. underneath it, prezzies from everyone in all sorts of wrappings.

you see mistletoes hanging from above and couples kissing to a great tradition in what a wonderful day like this.

On this day, we'll all do a sing-along to the carols. felicia, fiona, sheryl, willie, wilson.. "the 12 days of christmas."

hey, does it ring a bell? yeah. it's the time of the year again. i missed the days we used to have.

for everything that you have ever stood for, there's this line to be drawn. we've got to decide.

i just want to be happy this christmas. =D

i haven't been blogging for a month already.. well, i blog only when i feel something in my life is so different from any other days. the month has been boring. we're all getting engrossed with work. im so tired already. but its great. at least i havent been touching the books for the past 6 days ever since study break started. its high time to start today. i guess there's still so much more to look forward in life.

anyways, had our first very class outing of 3a07. hahah.. yeah. ive been an 08er for 2 years and all of a sudden im going out with a different group of people. we all still had our fair share of fun. vivien's place rawkz. and im loving Halo 2. although it rained when we just got the fire started for the bbq, we managed to get all the cooked food done (at vivien's place). i guess she's one helluva mentor. she's such a great one at that. im loving poly life. i guess im going to miss all my mates when we all finally do graduate in a matter of months.

well, to life. =P

can't deny the term's been hectic. well, final year, final semester. it all seems so hard to get through. need to unwind. :)

Hmm.. Im wondering if im doing the right thing.

it seems that i'd prefer not to face the truth.

i know that it's not right, but i guess it isnt wrong either.

im in a dilemma.

but i think i shouldnt care about all this at such a time.

i should concentrate on what's more important to me.

i want to but i cannot.

it shouldn't exist.

it's meaningless. the entry.

like i said, you would prefer to keep it to yourself.

It might be you

Time, Ive been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there could be someone
Waiting home for me
Somethings telling me it might be you
Its telling me it might be you
All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face
Somethings telling me it might be you
Its telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake and theres so much love to make
I think were gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And its telling me it might be you
All of my life
Ive been saving love songs and lullabies
And theres so much more
No ones ever heard before
Somethings telling me it might be you
Yeah, its telling me it must be you and
Im feeling itll just be you
All of my life
Its you, its you Ive been waiting for all of my life
Maybe its you
Maybe its you
Ive been waiting for all of my life.

if you give too much attention to one thing, you stand to lose out on alot of things that are happening around you.





don't let that happen to me.

Not Ready For Goodbye

Sitting here staring at the wall
Another lonely tear falls
Im trying to write you this song
But I can hardly see the page at all
Cause its breaking my heart
When I look in your eyes
And I dont see me anymore
Oh, and you’re all Im living for

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
Cause I’m not ready for goodbye

Baby, please pick up the phone
Tell me Im crazy,
I got it all wrong
I dont know what Im gonna do
I dont know how to live without you
You are the first song
My heart ever heard
And baby, I-I believed every word
You are my heart, my soul, my world
Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
Cause Im not ready for goodbye

Every breath that I take,
every beat of my heart
You know its all for you
I wanna hold you,
I wanna love you
Forever and always

Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
Cause Im not ready for ..Goodbye


hehh.. my all time favourite, im not ready for goodbye.

Hmmm.. you might wonder. Why am I up at such a time? Well, its because I had medicine in the afternoon at slept all the way till 9pm. I'm like rushing to do my tutorials now to catch some sleep later on.

And hey! I had nothing better to do and I clicked into my own Archive of Nov'04.. and guess what I found out? ...

It's been a year since coming back from Vietnam. Time flies, really. I've actually been to so many places in this one year, 2005, which of course, is coming to an end really soon.

So many things happened this year, be it bad or good, sweet or bitter. at the end of the day, you put it all behind and and tread a step further to the present.

Learnt many things this year and I guess we've all matured in one way or another and soon enough, every of us will have their own responsibilities to carry. In short, what a fruitful year.

I'm thankful for the attention and the care that's been showered on me, for so many other reasons.

but time can harm and heal all wounds..

renewing the faith

in life you'll have many friends and relatives.. they all are like the stars shining brightly and you are the sky. they keep you twinkling brightly throughout your whole lives. it's just too unfair and selfish to say that without your girl or boyfriends, your life will be finished. instead, look on the bright side. at times you will twinkle alone..but.. without one star, there are still many other stars shining brightly for you. so whenever u think its the end, i will be there to add that glow for you.. and always know that someone in this world loves you. :D

- to life, and my uncle.

know something?

my blog is officially 2 years and 2 weeks old. omg.

i didnt know i kept it for so long.. hehheh..

cheers for the determination.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8New King James Version

4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;

5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;

6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;

7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails.

A simple lesson on the profound term, "love" ! hmm.. how true how true... :D

absence does make the heart grow fonder.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top is where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to, oh why, oh why can't I?
Well I see trees of green and
Red roses too,
I'll watch then bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world
Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself
What a wonderful world
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more than
We'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world
Someday I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top is where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dreams that you dare to, oh why, oh why can't I?



Hmm.. what a beautiful place to be in. Well, I'm sure such place does exist. It's somewhere, somewhere I've yet been to. Great song.. it's actually a medley between Somewhere Over The Rainbow and Louis Armstrong's What A Wonderful World . Lovely.

If only trouble melts like lemon drops..

alrighty. ive got my mind made up. everything's settled and im glad..

still, im feeling foolish.

who says im not hurting inside. i am. its my cough. maybe.

remember, im not steering away from the path that was set ever since i stepped into the main road.

good night. it's gonna be a better day tomorrow. :)

bad hair day today. woke up feeling all sad and grey. im just having a bad, bad day.

probably because of the sickness, the things that are revolving around me now, friends, future or even school work.

I guess its inevitable. I just cant take everything to stride. we all meet with obstacles every now and then. it's how we look at it and handle it that reflects on our moods. so i guess i havent been handling things well?

Everyone's feeling the vibes of how the final semester is going to be like. we're all riding the emotional waves. what a wrong time to be in.

you know, its bad when you keep a blog and when u feel u wanna say something, u'd prefer keeping it to yourself. i need someone to share my stuffs with me so badly, yet all i do is be cautious. someone tell me how.

but ultimately, i need to keep my very own secret to myself. im such a bad person.

strive, man, strive.

im coughing badly again!... i dont know whats causing all this but it certainly doesnt feel too good at all. after school today, kit drove us to suntec city to have our dinner and of course, slack. we talked alot about our new classmates and how does it feel like being in a new class and we all agreed somehow or another, that 1A08/2A08 is still the best! Afterall, we've been together for 2 years and these memories do not account for nothing! We're certainly missing each other's company..
And then i went coughing badly and Yingli bought me some cough drops to surpress them. Well, im thankful for that and maybe it's all the friends that we've made throughout our years in the poly that moulds us into such a great class with great company.
Well, it was such a meaningful night out to town yesterday too and everything went down into my memories. I guess it's been such a great week altogether even with this sickness that i'm having right now.. :)

People, good night. And to those who have fallen sick -- take care!

off to the bed

Hmm.. i was down with a cough since yesterday. and it got worse today. but it's suppose to be such a great public holiday for me tomorrow. ive planned to go out and stuff but i guess if the situation doesnt improve, i'll have to pay a visit to the clinic tomorrow. i guess i should just turn in early tonight. damn it's killing me....

Today, we graduated from Chemical Process Technology Centre (CPTC). what a day it was for all of us and how much it meant to us. we'll definately be missing all the peepz in the centre..

Hmm, Im not gonna forget all the fun times we had on CPTC.. the day and night shifts that we got.. and all the very small details that we enjoyed during this 6-week long training. Time really flies too soon.. I remembered the first day entering CPTC and everyone felt like its going to be a terrible nightmare but it turned out to be such a great place..And Im certainly missing our trainers Han, Tan, Goh, Shi nuo and many others. Suddenly, it got me thinking of the days in Vietnam and when we left Hoa Sua School. Hahah!

Ive been getting emotional lately and I dont know if its the right time to feel the way i feel right now.. it certainly hasnt been like that for quite a while.

Oh well... take care.

it's been a month since i got back from the UK.. ! you see, time really flies right? well, ever since i got back, life has got a little more busier than usual. that's the way I feel ! hmm, and with the training that's lined up for us even during our supposed holidays, i hardly have the time to catch a breather. that's life.

guess what? i've got the results of my attachment! and im very very pleased with it..! it's really kept the hopes of my getting into a local U alive. then again, i wouldnt know the challenges ahead of me. right now, the things in my mind are just all about my future.

for all i know, the next four months would just be like a breeze and before i even realised it, everything would be over. the next phase of my life will be entering National Service, serving my country. :)

I'm really confused over what's ahead of me, it's really tough feeling that way and sometimes i would rather not think about it at all.

to all the people who i've known, im sorry that we havent kept in close contact for so long. im looking forward to meet lots of friends that i yearn to see after so long though without having the chance to do so.

school will be starting in 3 weeks time. oh my goodness. its back to school, after such a long break away.

genx signing off.

ive been missin' u

you work, you work harder; you break down.

you work, you take a rest; you work better.


cheers

there and back again...

yes, im back! 5 months flew.. and here am i standing on the ground that i was born. im in Singapore! well, all i can say now is that im having mixed feelings. at times, i feel excited and anxious to be back, and on other times, there's this deep heart wrenching feel down under. because i hate the feeling of parting. sometimes, i ask myself, "will I ever get to see him or her again?". many times, the answer is "Unlikely". We all know that the unlikely is undoubtedly known as a big NO. I would not know, I chose not to.

But I had my fair share of hard work, joy, fun, pain, laughter, sadness, stress, holidays, jobs... the list goes on. So many things Ive experienced all throughout the 5 months. I felt that I've certainly gained another level of knowledge.

I recalled the first day when I came to UK. All was well except that I didn't have a single clue about preparing my own dishes, I didn't know how much water to add to cook my rice without it turning too hard or soggy, I didn't know how much washing powder to add for my load of laundry. I've learnt it all.

5 months didnt seem to long to me, but tons of memories are in it. I would recall so many things like having parties, playing PS2 with Louis and Zhi yu, solving crosswords with Jon and Atky, having senseless debates with Tom, and correcting my English with Louis, BBQ, buffet dinner, holidays to italy, playing football with chinese and afghans... hahaha.

Whilst on my way back, I thought to myself. Life goes on.. and indeed it's going on. Chris would still be in the electrochem Lab, the Kebab seller in Berlin is still selling his Doner, the Gondola man would still be working in Venice, the usher will still be guiding kids in Disneyland, the receptionist in City Hostel will still be taking his shift --- Everything goes on.

I'm glad and I'm sad.

I wouldn't know if anyone from the University of Newcastle would be reading this but all I can say --- a big THANK YOU for the people from Singapore Society. Thanks to Juni, Nelly, Eugene, Jerome, Wanling, Alvin... and many others, for getting us drunk right on the first day in UK. Especial thanks to Juni for inviting us over to her place for dinner every now and then. I certainly feel that we'll get to see you in Singapore one day and I'm gonna give you a big treat!

The last 11 days spent in Europe was great in many ways. We went to France, Switzerland and Germany. I know I know, it's everybody's wish. They'll have their chance. I only had it earlier. I thoroughly enjoyed sleeping in airports, having One proper meal a day, having biscuits for all other meals and carrying luggages around touring the streets of Paris, Geneva and Berlin.
I've learnt so much more about planning trips and backpacking and I would love to travel more.

I'll continue missing Newcastle, UK and Europe. For now, it's Singapore!

okay, i know it now. i have to start taking more responsibilities up my shoulders because my sister will not be able to handle them all alone. i will i must and i am going to do so. hehhhh.... guilty for the past few months that ive left. so many things happened at home. though they're trivial, the trivial many is going to have the impact of a crucial one. and i do mind as well. so.. that's it. more responsibilites.

i guess it's no more time to be nonsensical and senseless huh.. its now rational stuffs, got to be serious now. my bro's having his N lvls in a month's time and i cant do anything about it-- for now! I'll be back to control him. hehehh...

looking back the pages of my life, i guess ive really changed...

The day hasnt been at all great..

I fell sick eventually. Well I expected it all along and that I knew that this day would come, slowly but surely. Down with flu and a slight fever. The weather here kind of turned nasty for the past week. It was getting to 7 degrees on summer and that might be the cause of it. I just wanna get back to Singapore to meet my family and my friends. One wouldnt really know how much a family mean to him unless he experienced the absence of them... hehh..

Anyways, found some great songs and probably get it loaded :D

take care peeps.

it's the weekends again, finally...

Hectic schedules and loads of work are really piling up over here so i ain't got much time to do updates and stuff. shame. well, Elya and Elayna are heading back to Singapore tomorrow morning. wosh.. time flew past again. everyone's going back to Singapore and before I know i'll be heading back too, in a matter of a month. To Elya and Elayna, we're gonna miss you and the fun that we all had over here.. cya guys in school real soon. :D. loaded a piece of song up, and im pretty sure they're gonna stay happy on this website for sometime. meanwhile, nites and take care people.

Hey peeps, I believe you guys have heard about the London blasts. Yeh, infuriating. and to be truely afraid of it, I was at the exact place 2 weeks' back. suddenly a Deja Vu stroke me... and it's all back to the 9/11 incident. Damn, Im really hating the terrorists big time. It's been such an eventful week and they were all leaning towards optimism and the good stuffs.

There was the...

Live Aid...
woh, think there was at least 10 hours non-stop concert going on and it was really great with all the singers gathered together aimed at dealing with fighting poverty in Africa. Just like the last big thing they had 20years back... good stuff.

London 2012
They got it.. chosen as the City to host Olympics for 2012.. The atmosphere was felt everywhere and it was just great to be able to see Singapore on National TV (BBC)..

G8 summit
The political part of Live Aid..

London Blasts
Woke up this morning and the moment I turned on my TV I saw "London Blasts". For a moment, i was really shocked and cannot believe what's going on. Afterall, the night before everyone was talking about London 2012. What really surprised me was that the place that was bombed was the placed we lived in. Russell Square.. and even King's Cross... the Tube that we've taken. I was relieved but yet I felt really pissed off with the terrorists.

To the terrorist, \/. no, not peace. but, piss off.

Firstly, apologys all to myself for not being hardworking enough to get my site updated as I could have. Oh well, life has been a little more challenging as we've got more responsibilities to take on and more stuffs and excuses for us to work overtime over here. but i'm kind of used to life being here. Who cares what lies ahead. all i know is, im heading to destination London tomorrow morning. In fact, later on. let's hope it will be all fun and laughter and come on(in an english ascent), let's get work out of the way for once. take care people. enjoy the weekend and spend it as if it's your last.

Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
?I'm fine baby, how are you??
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


a dedication from me to you..

Italy and back

Hi guys, been away for a week to Italy. Quite a cool place but still it fell short of the ideal italy that was expected from me.

Rome
Upon arrival, we took the metro to our hostel to get our backpacks settled before heading out to The Colosseum. massive, magnificent. well, it took quite a bit of an effort to find our hostel because we were totally strangers to the place. The day was basically spent on heading to the different tourism spots to spectate the magnificent architectural structures there. We saw the "wedding cake" and found it really amazing. But after awhile, it's just monuments after monuments. We decided to settle our dinner at Bulldog Inn. It was crap and so was the food. I paid like 5 euros for a Panini that didnt taste like one... eww. But well, our legs got pretty tired after carrying our barang barangs around and about. Headed back to the hostel for an early night. The next few days, we went to Vatican City, yes, the smallest country in the world. It was superb. We all went to San Pietro, maybe called as St. Peter's Square? The monuments are really nice. Headed in to the Sistine Chapel to take a look at all the paintings on the ceiling and had a chance of a lifetime to see "The Last Judgement". Coooool. We managed a cool 11/12 tourist spots in just three days. it was tiring but it was a worthwhile one. Thank goodness, we've got really great partners to entertain ourselves throughout the trip -- Kun Yuan, Yew Keng and Win Win. *claps*

they headed to london this afternoon, im here wishing them a bon voyage.

Im really tired after the trip... but fun fun fun! now that's worth it!
Venice -- to be continued....

Lemar - Time to Grow

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep
Thoughts of you were in my head
I was lonely and I needed you next to me
Life is harder since you left
I never meant to do you wrong
And now all is said and done
I hope you won't be gone too long/ No
[Chorus]
Where do I go
What do I do
I can't deny I still feel something
And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same
You've broken the bond
I gotta move on
But how do I end this lonely feeling?
You've gone, I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow
I try to speak, but my words never catch the air
Like you never knew I was there
Take me back to the days when you really cared
Can we make love re-appear?
I can't go on the roads too long
And now all is said and done
I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from
[Chorus]
Crying time is over
I know I can't control her feelings
If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man
and move on
Time to grow / And move on
Make life better than it was before
Time to grow and move on
Make love better than I did before [repeat]
Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow

Amor, Amor..

We'll its been an emotional week.. 2 of our labmates, Ruth and Amor went back to their respective countries -- Canada and Spain. We're gonna miss them, really. Had our dinner yesterday at La Toscana last night. It was quite a posh restaurant but that wasnt the main subject.. it was meant to be a farewell party for Amor and Ruth; it's served its purpose. Ruth kind of broke down.. afterall, she's spent probably years here. For Amor, she's just like us, students here for internship.. yeah. We're probably closer to Amor because she talks quite abit to us whenever we're at the lab.. kinda had fun with her around and yeah, im sure the lab's gonna be not as joyful without them around. Anyways here am I wishing the both of them all the best, and do take care lots.. missing you all man. :(

After that, it was simply pub-hopping. quite an interesting activity here.. well, at least its really common over here. but i dont know about Singapore though.. haha.

Puff Daddy's - I'll be missing you (all). :D

now im mentally drained. tired. to take a step forward, or to tread a step back. im not deciding now. i cant.. period.


walk away. not worth it. yeah.

Luther Vandross' - "Dance With My Father"

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream.


It's a very touching song that I've managed to play from the pile of collection that I have in my computer. Well, to me it means a whole lot more than to dance with my father. It tells one to cherish their loved ones, before everything gets too late. I wouldn't know how much it means to each and every or anyone of you, but hey, you wouldnt wanna regret, would you?. Did I sort of repeat this post?

Cheers & good night, peeps.


Now, i guess im almost over you? hmmm....

Now....... I'm in the mood for love(songs). muahaha.

Rod Stewart - First cut is the deepest.

Well, how's everybody there? if anyone would have been reading this entry, can they come up ahead to text me in my MSN? that would be great, won't it? hehh.. anyway, i just caught this movie (on my laptop) Catch Me If You Can and i found it superb. how in the world could i have missed such a great movie?! see, when everything gets so stressed up you'll just miss out on the things that are happening around you, aint it? its true. right now im just in this little apartment of my flat. im playing some really nice classics by Rod Stewart. guys, if you havent heard of him, you've just missed out on a really really great singer of all time. shammme. These songs live in me, yeah. they're in it.. flowin.. i guess im just.. like that? and.. oh my gosh, its already 0020hrs over here. my weekend's been great. had a walk in the china town of Newcastle. im suggesting to call it China Street, though. in fact, this "town" is made up of an alley with shops next to and opposite to one another. Well well, how's your weekend, then?

People, take some time out of all the craps in life.. and it's time to spend some quality time to.. anyone you would like to.. or even yourself(just like what im doing) .. yeah?

Brushing all relaxations aside, its true we must too get serious with the work that we are assigned to. so ive made this decision, to really, work hard. and, to really, play hard. yeah..

Heading to Rome, Venice and Milan in a matter of weeks, this summer holiday. I'll be expecting a fruitful week over.

Okay, that's all of the updates i'll be giving for now. enjoy the night with a little kiss of classic songs? . and probably ask someone like this... "Fancy a dance?"muahah. im kiddin on that part alright..take care.



Cheers

suddenly, i have this feeling that i should get into track and not be steered away from what is supposed to be my long-term goal. yes, i'm going to do just that. get steered back on track, step on this big accelerating machine and speed upwards, only upwards. i'll climb, higher and higher. nothing's going to deter me. for i will stand up and brush aside all other obstacles that i see in front of me. i WILL, stand strong.

do the climb, search the success. :)

Happy Mother's Day, mum!

hey, made a trip to Durham today. it was simply awesome. we went there like early in the mornin' around 9am yeah.. and well, visited the Durham Castle & Cathedral. they were like having a service going on when we went into the Church. Im guessing that they were having a Holy Communion the time we were inside because judging by each of the people in there were holding a candle? yeah, thought so. took some pics with my friend's camera after that. will probably have them uploaded once i get hold of them. yeah. anyways, after visiting the Castle, we went down to the market to shop around. the shops were about the same as the ones from Newcastle, so it was actually quite an identical experience. the only WEIRD experience was.. the frequency of the rain over here. it supposedly "rained" four times today! it went raining for 5 seconds and then it stopped, this went of for another three times i think... and after each, the weather turned colder and we were actually feeling the chill, even AFTER winter. my goodness.
what really surprised me was that, the final occurence of the rain.. IT WAS ICE FALLING FROM THE SKY.. ! i was like "my goodness, what is going on? were they ice that i saw coming down from the sky?" true enough, it was. and its quite big in size! my friend then told me that it was a Hailstorm going on. i didnt have a clue what Hailstorm's suppose to be then, but now i do. haha.. -- window shopping -- .... took the GNER back to Newcastle.

That's basically it!

hmm, had nothing to do and so i decided to gave my lil blog a lil update on the lil stuffs in this lil life.. its been almost 4 weeks since ive got here. time really flies -- a fact that no one can deny. i still remember how the guys and the gals were like 4 weeks ago. i really hope and wish that they'll remain the same, if not better. life's been a little off paced ever since i came here. it felt as if i've plunged into this really big messy little life that's got me moving slower than i usually do. haha.. i have no idea why. well, the one thing that's for sure is probably because of the same routine that getting me going all these while. i need a change in my "lifecycle".

Anyway, its Spring time! its really evident because ive started seeing trees from bare, they've started bearing leaves and fruits and it's totally picturesque. well, i start seeing flies and mosquitoes too.. which i dont see during Winter times. lol. the weather's getting better by the day and i'm starting to love the cool breeze over here. its simply amazing.

the Sun sets only at about 9 - 9.30pm! which means i usually have a really long day. this also means that Summer is approaching like every other inevitable Season.

true enough, there's a Season for everything.

the life, pondering.

童话歌手:光良 专辑:童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空
星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护
你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

the days here...

let's imagine, this guy doesn't know a thing about cooking and now he's left to live all alone outside. heh.. i've been trying real hard to learn how to cook and i guess i've made some progresses along the way. apart from that, things have been going well so far except for this bad cough that i've caught. it's been stretched for like a week already, hope i really get rid of this sickness soon.

life over here is certainly lonesome. because of that time difference, i could hardly find some friends to chat with. reminiscing becomes inevitable when you're leading that kind of life. went around the friendsters, blogs and stuffs of my friend's and i started feeling so distant from my pals, be it physical or mental.

well, had this amusing thought a split second ago. i could look back to the life i was leading 3 years back, now and 3 years from now. reckon it to be a great difference from time to time. whatever it is, there is nothing we can do to stop the change. so what do we do? we'll just take steps of life as it is. life is just like a rollercoaster ride isn't it ? we get the highs and the lows.. moments of happiness and times of sadness. all these i've been through in the 19 years of my life and some times things are like that - too hard a fact to swallow; we'd do it, eventually.
good things doesn't come everyday, and they might just be gone when you realised you got to cherish them. too late. too bad. well, do tell the ones you love that you love them. yeah? :)

the usual khakis that you used to hang out with before, they aren't by your side now. they've gone on with their lives as time progresses. everybody moves on. seriously.

the simple life isn't that simple anymore.

the forty two minutes update..
take care lads

alas, im here !

well well, 13th day here! as you can see, things are going really slow over here.. I've got my internet just yesterday that's why I'm updating only today.
hmmm, let's recall. the snow greeted us the first day we reached Newcastle.. just a mild one though, not to the extent that it was white all over though. we carried all our luggages to the hostel and ..wow! i guess all of us couldnt stand it and all of us were shivering because we didnt predicted the weather to be like that. we all knew it was spring over here and that day was just exceptional, unusual, weird to the fact that there was Snow. i was hurting on the tip of my nose and my ears - they were sensitive man. that was for the arrival part.
The weather got really wet and cold over here and even as we spoke, there were like vapours coming out of our mouths. fell sick few days back, had a really bad cough. its really depressing to come to a country like this, because wherever you go, you're definitely one of the shortest around. darn!
im starting to miss chinese food. and soccer and even the weather in singapore. but i'll try to love this country more. afterall, im going to be here for 5 months. better learn to cook more stuffs cos ive been repeating what ive been eating(pastas and more pastas)! guys send me more recipes pls i need more variety haha.. anyways, im missing people in singapore too. my friends and my family especially! well, time will soon pass and i'll be back soon man ! cya, friends. take care everyone!

its been awhile, guys! well, im leaving on a jet plane, again... ! but this time it's gonna be for a long, long time. 6 months.. yeah.. i'm sure im gonna miss everything over here. all the happenings i'm gonna miss.. and the street soccer games they gonna play.. and the life of weiming in Singapore .. yep.. went walking about alone today to get my toiletries and provisions.. and i realised living alone is not gonna be an easy thing to do. and the magical switch! it takes alot of courage to get into a different environment altogether. it tedious because the thought of it makes my heart sink and its not a nice feeling at all. i will be missing everyone. everyone's asking if im excited to get there but, im more concerned of how am i gonna feel if i leave all my friends and family members in Singapore. im heading there alone ! mind ya.. i have to learn cooking and stuffs. i will come back stronger physically and mentally. and i m really really thankful for all the people i know.. for all the care they've shown these days. u wont be forgotten man... alright.. i'll probably leave my ending entry for tomorrow yah..

i cant express how im feeling now.. but let me tell you.. im wishing if i didnt make that decision. it's okay !

well, exam's finally over !! actually im feeling a little sad. cos im guessing that im not gonna do well this semester.. :( its all just guessing though.. im half conscious right now and im feeling prb a little normal .. yet a little lost in space feel. im quite sad by the fact that im actually leaving overseas for my attachment yea. but well, its just gonna be 5 straight months and i'll be back. i'm gonna make sure that everytghings gotta be alright cos it takes quite alot of money to get there.. okay. ill ba back soon byereee !!

Birthday Entry...

its been days since i last added an entry to my blog. well, today is the day when i finally turned 19. yeah.. its really fast aint it.. ? 1 year flew past without me noticing.. yeah. and this year, its really special. because i planned not to celebrate it. partially, its because of the piles of projects that im having and on the other hand, its really up to personal reasons yeah. im truely sorry to the peeps that have celebrated my birthday with me before. but hope you guys understand!
anyway, putting all aside, i believe its time i paid tribute to my uncle. its one year already huh.. everythings fine for me. im 19 this year! i hope i'll be up to another level in terms of maturity. and i guess i will. im turning independant already. next year im 20, and its really a "wow" age for me isnt it? But.. growing up is just a journey in life..! everyone has to go through someday. its just that ive been here faster than some.. yeah ? and that what's important is the maturity. i will. i have. yes, i am.

wishes...

well, time for wishes! of course, firstly i would like to wish that every family member and friends of mine be happy and healthy.. and leading a fulfilling life! secondly, i wish that the people that i hold dearly all my life be happy in whatever they do and too letting them know that im all out to support whatever their decision is and hope they'll do the same to me too. :D
for myself, i'll just hope everything gets well this semester, and i hope that life in uk will be easy to adapt. afterall, im gonna spend half of my 19th year over there.. heh..

im really glad to receive messages from friends wishing me a happy birthday. im sure i'll be really happy today.. :)

alright, for the not so fun part now. im heading to rehearse on my presentation now! so, i'll sign off for now.. ! bye peeps.

what a day! .. didnt have much sleep last night and as a result, today i went to school feeling lethargic all over man. but then again i managed to complete this long day.. haha..

we ALL know its valentine's day today..

made a trip to causeway point to get my binding stuffs just now and.. wow.. almost everybody is with a partner ahaha.. and i think i was left stranded in the mall. lol.. but well, this year is just gonna be another year and this day is just gonna be another day for me. i've got projects to do, and i've got a test coming up tomorrow and i guess it's really just the right day to keep me so occupied la. im afraid i might just get affected by this occasion, haha.. :D

to all the couples out there.. Happy Valentine's Day!.. and well, not forgetting my single friends out there.. hmm.. Happy Valentine's Day to u guys as well :)

Okay, im really tired! i need to rest argh.

And well, this ive got my blog's song changed. dedicated to this special person la. well, that's the least i could do for such a day like this.. i really hope u dont mind.. yeah.. :)

happy valentine's day :)

im taking this chance to once again apologise to all the people that ive ever offended in any course whether its deliberate or not.. im sorry man. i know at times i tend to get so hostile towards people because of the stress and stuffs, but then again, this is no excuse at all to vent my anger on you guys. Anyway, i know i do have faults and that i am not perfect. but ive told myself that i'll change for the better towards those conscious mistakes ive been making, in terms of everything. i certainly hope i can do so!
1sts..
haha, last night was my first ever clubbing experience! well, i went with the intention to see what's in there that's making so many of my friends hooked to it. true enough, it was an eye-opener.. haha. then again, i couldnt have imagined myself in there. the only thing i hate about was the smoke man. it really stinks and i have a feeling it's going to drain off my stamina that ive built on..lol. there were people dancing at the dancefloor and stuffs. and we did join in the fun actually. it was really cool. but its just really not a good idea to get hooked on such places because its expensive, okay. Probably its great to just go there like once every few months should be good enough. So friends, you've heard what i have to say! nonetheless, it was a great experience. :)

February...
hehe.. this is my month! but then again, its not a great month for me. because of the so many things that are happening or have happened before. i remember 2004, 21st February, my uncle passed away the day before my birthday. i was greatly saddened by that incident because i couldnt accept the fact that it has happened. i still cant.
next, Valentine's Day! haha.. well, im sure it isnt a great day for anybody single out there. but, im sure The One* will come one day. we just got to wait, lah. although waiting seems forever. hahah.. ive spoken with some of my friends and they felt the way i felt too. cheers, singles swingles.
22nd February, 2001, the happiest day of my life. because something happened. im sure people that are close to me knows about it but i shall not mention it again.. heh.
22nd February, 2004, lost my Nokia 7650, biggest birthday present!
And I really wonder what's going to happen this year, but i think its just gonna be another birthday really. maybe there's no celebration this year, because of the hectic schedule ive been receiving. but i'll try to finish all my stuffs by then in order to have a quiet night at least.
Thats why i say, February is the month that im hating but loving at the same time.. -_-

updates till here, byebye people.

Happy lunar new year everyone! yeah, its the first day of chinese new year today. I remember when i was a little kid, i used to hang around at my grandparent's place for like.. the whole night and the atmosphere over there is always so great that everyone seems so jovial for such a joyous occasion. but as we grew older, things arent how they used to be like. everything's toned down. and everyone seems so serious. and we hardly stayed there for four hours. it's sad, but it's true. just like what that has been going on. :(

goodbye, doesnt mean forever.

i just couldnt get to sleep. so i decided to write up testimonials of my friends and family members.. the people i love and ever loved.

Family...

Dad: i havent seen you for a long time! .. hope you're doing fine out there.. Of course i'll never forget the days we had when I was young. It certainly isnt easy to let all these beautiful memories fade away. who can I honour more than my parents, isnt it. :)

Mum: my greatest love of all time. I just hope that someday i could tell you i love you so much. i have been such an irrational small kid. although sometimes i tend to get so annoyed by what you say or do. I dont mean it. trust me. I still love you as much. you've certainly showered so much care and concern to the 3 of us.. haha.. I love you, man.

Sister: yes, we are more like adults now. right? we don't quarrel as much. we do talk sometimes. but most of the time you arent at home. well, whatever it is, I love you.

Brother: hey, play less and do more studies! afterall, its such an important year for you this year. of course, we quarrel most at home. I just hope that you'll do well in your studies and .. well, soon you'll grow to know there's so much more than playing with computer games. LoL. I love you.

Uncle: although you've passed on. goodbye, doesnt mean forever. remember? Soon it's going to be a year already. Life without you hasnt been great. but i know you are up there in heaven watching over us. :D love you.

GodFamily: well, thanks so so much.. I know i havent been visiting you guys as often as jonathan does but well, its not that i dont want to. its just that my time doesnt permit me to do so.. so i seek forgiveness! thanks for the so many things..

Friends...

Kenneth: one of my best friends out there! although we havent been in the same school, I really appreciate the effort you make to bond the group closer everytime. been such a geat vice-captain for me, although they didnt last forever, but they lasted so long. I could never need to hide what i am thinking inside. because i know there are so many listening ears out there. Needless to mention, our friendship will never, ever end. :D

Jonathan: what a friend indeed! you've been great. although we always had differences. but you've been such a great friend to me. you've been another listening ear. maybe its because that we're in the same college, we got closer. yeah. let us all hope things will go on smoothly as before and that we all can graduate together and stuffs.

Deb: well, you've been such a great, great friend. always and forever.. the only female friend that ive regarded a great friend, because i know i can share my secrets with you. I wouldnt want to deny taking a liking to you. I guess i havent told you all these while before, but then again, we all got to accept that everything is over and that we'll remain as great friends, as always. although i hardly see you as often as before, i know you've been leading such a great and meaningful life. do remember to be less stressful at things because stress doesnt take one anywhere but worse. quit being too busy too! take care!

AvGs: woh, our friendships have certainly gone through so so much. but so many of you have changed. i could hardly recognise. whenever i look at some of you, i could hardly picture the nerdy side of you guys. we had our piece of fun. from pokemon cards, to cs, to soccer even..but everything seems fading. i would hate to say that but i would hate to deny that. people, let's all hope we can all stay as friends forever.

Poly mates: I cannot forget this bunch of friends man.. haha.. they're a group of really fun loving and even such a funny group with benny around. we even have gym lovers like wj and kit.. and a soccer freak like me, wc.. the girls, all so smart ! where in the world guys stand..!! haha.. thanks so much for adding so much fun in my life man.

the list goes on....

I have so many other people to mention here. but it'll take forever if i were to mention every single one of them. its not that you guys arent important. its just that its 3am now...!! haha.. and well, i just wanna say my friends are so equally important.. studies isnt everything. we all need friends need family members to keep our life going. happily. :D everyone take care man...!

February, the month i'd like to love and the month i'd like to hate.

blue is the colour for today. well, today was bad. and true enough it was, i took back my first common test paper and i didnt do well at all. that wasnt the paper i expected to fare badly but, i accepted it anyway. dont know why the whole day didnt feel really good. suddenly im like plunging back to life that was used to be. who cares. anyway, had a reunion dinner with godma after school. and then headed to causeway point to meet lian sheng and guys, because its his birthday today.

whatever it is, im really confused right now. with alot of things. can anybody give me answers to my doubt? argh... i know procrastinating doesnt help. but i cant help but procrastinate.

i just received notification today that im finally heading towards Newcastle on april for my attachment. maybe it's time for me to really relax and forget about things that are happening in singapore. but i wouldnt want to live anywhere other than home forever. i'll miss my family so much.. :(

A day not to be forgotten, even if i would want to...hahah..

suddenly i had this feeling to blog today. seriously felt so. anyway, today was really really funny! i had this appreciating artwork module that required me to go to the Singapore Art Museum to visit artworks of local artists and also Botero's. but well, because i was busy struggling the other project, i managed to get there so late.. that it was a thirty minutes stay at the museum before it actually closes. Apparently, my friend and I stayed in there for a whole 1hr and 45 minutes! guess what.. no one will ever believe what i have to say right here. I WAS TRAPPED INSIDE THE MUSEUM. REALLY. the moment i heard this warning system that tells us that the premise would close in 10 minutes time, i was already making my way out of the place. but then after walking for one round trying to look for the exit, i realised i was walking round and round and round. probably i walked for 20 rounds before realising that We were trapped in there already as the premise have already closed. the security totally so happened to miss us! we couldnt get out of the place!! at all. it totally freaked us out. i finally had to dial 999 for the first time in my life, to seek police help. LOL. well, we had a great laugh there and yeah.. still finding things a little foolish right now. i told my friend we ought to really really be honoured. because to date there was only ONE person to ever get trapped in there.. hahah.. we were the 2nd and the 3rd. cool right? yeah, anyway my friend here declined to be named. so i respect his decision. LOL... after that, had a little walk at bugis and orchard for a little while before he went on and met with his friends and me, took a little stroll at orchard myself and then headed home after that..

reminisence

i dont know whats on my mind now but things of the past keeps coming back now.. i'm starting to have memories of what has happened last time.. yeah.. things that i wouldnt forget my whole life. probably beautiful yet sad memories. but well, told myself to get on with life. and things have really gone well.. everybody's moved on. isnt it? tell me no.
on the surface it seems like things are easy to put behind and look ahead to.. in actual fact, i guess they're not. we just haven't mentioned it. thats why it didnt resurface. but in whatever you do, i just hope that you'd be happy forever. :D

woh, its been a long time since i last blogged. well, recent days have been busy.. real busy. but i still found time to slack though. anyway, been briefed about overseas attachment one week ago. and ive decided i'll probably be heading to Newcastle on April. im actually quite confused. im not really sure what am i going to do over there and stuffs. hope i can get a clearer picture before i submitted my form. putting that aside, I got the tickets for the Tiger Cup final ! woh..... yeah. 1/55000. haha got to thank my friend WC though. not my effort to queue again and again to get so many tickets. lol. been really busy since school reopened. i'm like chasing datelines day after day. screwed up a couple of quiz already man. i think i will not do well this semester, lets hope this perception doesnt stay. haha.. alright.. thats all for my updates. check back. bye

Ryan Cabrera - True

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think I dont look
but deep inside the corner of my mind
Im attached to you

I'm weak it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide
It's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me ?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide it's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide It's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true...

January 1, 2005. hey that sounds familiar. Happy New Year. yeah, another year has passed. lots of things happened this year. be it good, or bad, sad or joyful. things just happen, for a reason maybe. for me, things are just on-going. there's no bad or good year. because so many things happened to me and around me, its just too difficult or impossible to weigh how good or bad this year has been. but on top priority this year, i would like to emphasize on the tidal waves that killed so many people in Asia. deepest condolences to them. for everyone's information, the death toll has reached 150,000. remember the other time i did mentioned about this matter, it was standing at a 55,000 high. 3-folds now. terribly tragical. im considering donating part of my pocket money but im still deciding how much am i going to give. and also, i would like to urge everyone to give, be it any amount, because a little goes a long way... didn't really celebrated New Year this year. simply because i wasnt in the mood to do so. of course i was quite tired as well. the morning too greeted me with it raining. everything sort of tuned down, because of the weather. well, guess its time for me to start on my about to due assignments. argh. for 2005, id just like to wish that people living in this world be safe, my family be happy and in success in whatever they do, i too wish friends around me all the best, i wouldnt slack in studies like i did in 2004, Singapore winning the Tiger Cup, Manchester United clinching the title (LOL) and lastly, i would lead life happily. because i noticed i would graduate next year and things are not going to slow down like you want them to, i would like to cherish what i have for now, and in all other things, let's just leave them to decide as time goes by. very soon, the guys will be in the army, the girls working, the people busying leading their own life. well, happiness to all! Lastly, let's hope Asia would tide over tides and waves, crisis and tragedy. Peace.