一转眼，三年又过了。
yes, 3 years that is.
tonight, i just want to spend this time to really sit down, take a look back at life, think and reflect on the things i've done.
i know this is what people do at the start or end of every other year. but seriously, the year's just started for me only. for i've been busy that i missed out on 2006 for so long.
on life..
i havent really appreciated things well. i guess. i know that ive been really numb about certain things that i choose not to think about. its really bad.
but fortunately, ive met a group of friends who are particularly supportive of me.
and of course my family, who's been there all these while. i've so many things ive yet to pluck up the courage to say.
my polytechnic life has been really fantastic, especially people from 1A08, 2A08 and of course the whole LT to be vague. you've been through a part of my life. i missed the days having fun in school and stuffs. going to kbox, catching movies in the lousy Clementi movie theatre, having sushi buffets, copying assignments, pakat in tests and most of them all enjoying every moment. grateful.
every single one in my class deserves a great pat at the back on their shoulders for being such a great friend to me.
life has been hectic, or rather, i chose it to be that way. it kept me occupied that i hardly had time with other aspects of life. its time to make up for loss time. i was troubled, i guess.
on love...
hah, been through all that so long ago. it didnt play a part in these 3 years or so i thought. but i guess its all decieving. ive been meaning to tell you this but u know im in a dilemma and i shouldnt do so. im just crazy.
of course i miss you too, but its over and its time for me to be firm to say that its over and move on with things. im glad we're good friends and things will certainly stay the way it is. take care.
well, no one in my life for now. maybe i do miss that kind of feeling after such a long absence but it doesn't come at the snap of the finger.
on myself...
another milestone in life. we proceed. upwards and forward. we graduate every few years and we meet different people who become best of friends for the next 50 years. and for all we know, we're all growing up. my friend once told me.. after i hit 20, i'll grow old very fast. and for that, i totally agree. told you guys before, im feeling the responsibility now.
life is all about constant reflection. yes it is.
29.3.06
26.3.06
you don't miss your water till the well runs dry.
yeah. people tend to take what they have for granted, never in their thoughts that everything might one day be gone for good.
anyone ever pondered?
it struck me today as i was looking back at things while having an MSN conversation with my friend last night. well, it's high time to turn things around.
march seems like an "emo" month for my friends around me. hah, it's been so long since i got myself in such a whirlpool. but for all of you guys, i'd love to lend a listening ear if you need one.
:)
april's approaching. this would mean that it's been a year since i've left for the UK. but everything felt like it wasn't that long. i loved the independance of living alone where i've to take care of every little details. and for all i know, i can see myself growing in terms of how i look at life.
one thing i'm so sure. it's that i'm 20 this year.
我老了。 哈哈。
yeah. people tend to take what they have for granted, never in their thoughts that everything might one day be gone for good.
anyone ever pondered?
it struck me today as i was looking back at things while having an MSN conversation with my friend last night. well, it's high time to turn things around.
march seems like an "emo" month for my friends around me. hah, it's been so long since i got myself in such a whirlpool. but for all of you guys, i'd love to lend a listening ear if you need one.
:)
april's approaching. this would mean that it's been a year since i've left for the UK. but everything felt like it wasn't that long. i loved the independance of living alone where i've to take care of every little details. and for all i know, i can see myself growing in terms of how i look at life.
one thing i'm so sure. it's that i'm 20 this year.
我老了。 哈哈。
25.3.06
gotten my results yesterday. i was pleased with it, judging for the kind of effort i have been putting in. anyways, my past few posts were complaining about how tough the final semester was so hard to get through. well, it's all over now.
for now, time seems to fly. i seriously missed the days i spent in poly, where we could crap our way throughout lectures. i feel so old. im no longer a poly student. still in a dilemma if i should further my studies or not. blur.
the coming milestone would be into the army thats for sure. but really, i would like to hope to go overseas this holiday. its going to serve as a treat for myself before im tied to commitments in the country. duh.
well, i think i was caught in such a bad position yesterday. i didnt know how to react. i think you know what im talking about. heh.
for now, time seems to fly. i seriously missed the days i spent in poly, where we could crap our way throughout lectures. i feel so old. im no longer a poly student. still in a dilemma if i should further my studies or not. blur.
the coming milestone would be into the army thats for sure. but really, i would like to hope to go overseas this holiday. its going to serve as a treat for myself before im tied to commitments in the country. duh.
well, i think i was caught in such a bad position yesterday. i didnt know how to react. i think you know what im talking about. heh.
22.3.06
can i be who i was?
i turned 20 early this year. it's the first step to adulthood. this is the age where i get responsibilities that i haven't gotten before. i don't know what's going on but i'm feeling it.
anyway, life hasn't been all smooth sailing for quite long already. i've always wanted to change the way i lead my life, or rather, life leads me. but. yeah, i don't know.
why am i so lethargic. i need a fresh new burst of energy that will bring me further. i don't know where is it going to come from. i missed the days.
im looking 5 years back and now, i was 15 and now 20. so many things happened. i count my blessings though.
friendships don't count for nothing? i wanna end all squabbles and bickerings. i wanna end all backstabs and bullshittings;but i can't control whats coming in.
我累了。
i just want to be the me i used to be.
i turned 20 early this year. it's the first step to adulthood. this is the age where i get responsibilities that i haven't gotten before. i don't know what's going on but i'm feeling it.
anyway, life hasn't been all smooth sailing for quite long already. i've always wanted to change the way i lead my life, or rather, life leads me. but. yeah, i don't know.
why am i so lethargic. i need a fresh new burst of energy that will bring me further. i don't know where is it going to come from. i missed the days.
im looking 5 years back and now, i was 15 and now 20. so many things happened. i count my blessings though.
friendships don't count for nothing? i wanna end all squabbles and bickerings. i wanna end all backstabs and bullshittings;but i can't control whats coming in.
我累了。
i just want to be the me i used to be.