some things in life, we cannot predict, we cannot prevent. it applies to the subject itself. mak's mum just passed away awhile ago. im feeling terrible. reminiscing the time we used to spend the night over at mak's place, playing our console, rushing for projects. my teenage life made much more meaningful with her presence.

the sky's crying for her.


she's such a wonderful friend, parent, companion and mother.


you rest in peace. i know you will.


i will miss you. i will. i will...

i thought shit was over. it wasn't.


i might just wash my hands off this matter. i just might.


digress.


2nd July, going back to course. see you guys at the parade sq in december.

digress.


life's so screwed.







my mind's in 2 worlds. pardon me.

it's not whether you're up to it. it's more like how badly you want it.

whereever you are, Happy Daddy's Day.

i see myself somewhere.

that is very good.

sometimes we think too much. muahah

ive realised the need to fight for what i want.

life isn't dull. it shouldn't be.

i guess it's good to trash things out, although not peacefully. anyways, i guess life has been on the move again. it's always better to see things going your way, or rather, accepting things as it is. i believe i need to learn how to handle things when they don't go my way. this time round, i've grown again.

in a matter of month's, i will be making life-changing decisions. it's abit cruel at this juncture because afterall, im just 21 still. but i guess we need to learn to be decisive this time round, and also to be responsible for whatever decisions made.

i hope that i will be getting alot of blessings from alot of people, because i know faith alone doesn't work (okay maybe they do, once in a blue moon).

still, im working hard. i am.

i'm going to be a good boy from now on. heheh.

the cruel truth.


sometimes, i think i do see things too positively. maybe the world is not an oh-so-wonderful place. maybe we need to think twice about things. i cant say for sure that this place is bad. maybe we really need to work for what we want. maybe this time round, you're on your own. and if it really is, you need to decide quick. you need to be able to foresee what's going to come.

because uncertainty is setting in.

to fight a winning battle, you need to know how much resource you have.
i can't plan without intelligence.


and yes, i'm on my own now.

there's too much at stake.

i need to do so well.

watch it.








fuck.

something irreversible happened today. i think its going to affect my life. no. im sure.

you gave up on me.

things will never be the same again.