I remember the first time i met you in school, it was during our freshmen orientation camp. It was about a year back then..
At that time, I only had very brief moments with you when we struck a conversation with each other. my impression of you was that you were a quiet and introverted girl. although at times, i get to see the bubbly side of you too.
Indeed, it turned out to be so and as days go by, my impression of you got clearer and better.
I don't exactly know how you find me, but to me, you felt like someone who is independent and strong to deal with any uncertainties. you were someone whom i like chatting with because it always feels comfortable whenever i'm chatting with you. problems were distantly far away whenever we talk to each other. our msn conversations are always so long that they last into wee hours of the morning.
we all had our little crushes on each other, unknown little crushes that we chose to keep it to ourselves.
As things got hectic and the ever piling schoolwork got the better of everyone, you'd be busy juggling between redcross and studies and i'd be busy with my commitments in hall. we hardly see each other, even for the fact that we stay in the same hall.
it was then that my feelings for you faded, making me feel that it was probably just an infatuation after all.
The end of school term approached and everyone was heavily involved in IHG. Like everybody else, i enjoyed it thoroughly. i try to attend games that involved our block.
at times, i secretly made glances at you, even without my knowledge.
soon, i realised that you are still the attractive little girl hiding in that corner of my heart. but i never had the courage to ask you out.
it was silly to say that i revealed to some of them about my feelings towards you through a round of truth of dare, but the fact stays. so now, it was just that handful few who knew about it and oh, my roommate, whom i told him about when i first developed feelings to you.
after much persuasion from the girls, i decided to ask you out. honestly, i didn't know when it was going to happen, if it was ever going to happen.
there was one day, on my way to school, i chanced upon you at the bus stop. after a short conversation with you that i realised that like me, you haven't taken your lunch. i wanted to have lunch with you.. and i did, only after texting you during tutorials. i felt silly, but i didn't mind being so.
for two months, there were many instances where i tried to ask you out, but decided against it at the 13th hour.
finally on 20th February, i braced myself to ask you out for a movie. it was my first date in so many years. i remember it was "the curious case of benjamin button" that we caught. it was the 2nd time i ever went out to the movies with a girl.. so half the time i was feeling butterflies in my stomach. nevertheless, we had such a great day together.
sometimes, it is just amazing how things have developed. our liking to each other took to a new level and i knew you were the one for me. finally, i decided to let you know my feelings on 07.03.2009.
07.03.2009, i held your hand. this is a decision that i want to be with you all my life, no matter what it takes.
to my lovely baby,
Happy Valentine's Day.