look here, my mum's connected the line again. she's always threatening me. i know her too well. haha. :PpP. anyways, you guys can contact me thru my hp now. isnt that great? well, weeks been tough and slack though, i cant fight myself from being lazy and guilty at the same time. i failed my quiz. things are on the decline. been so lazy that i cant touch a single book in a week, and every effort to do so keeps me thinking that there are better things for me to do. how ? bleah now who cares, probably my first fail will be a lesson learnt. IM TOUGH. hehe. alright man. probably i wont be updating for quite sometime because of the coming tests and exams. dont be expecting daily updates, cuz' i wont be doing so, probably once a fortnight. yeap. and a big Thanks to the whoever people who are reading my diary. despite all the craps i write here. haha. signing off.

well, week was fine. everything went slower in pace. dont know why ? went to visit uncle.. today. he looks peaceful and there on his plate it engraved the words from the bible. Psalms 23.6. "surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." I found it meaningful of course. and may uncle rest in peace forever. :D hmm i got kinda pissed with my mother. she apparently cancelled off my phone line. just simply because i refused to pick up her phone. shit, right ? bleah.. who gives a damn i need no one to contact me anyway.. i can no longer stand her childishness already, so i had a tiff with her this morning .. argh. i hate that. i dont like her man. her attitute is worse than anyone's. sigh. can forsee hows the future gonna be like.

yeah. test is over .. theres still 2 coming up next week .. so shant really slack for now. its still studying. why my life is all about studying man ?! sheesh. i dont like it. i need my weekly dosage of soccer and i have been deprived from it for a week already ! luckily im gonna haf soccer lessons this week, and for all AvG members, this weekend's the last training.. oh man. gonna miss trainings.. yeah .. but i cant be a procrastinator, i shall prioritise my schl work fer now. and probably concern about other stuffs, other time ! yup. till then. cya all.............

someday we'll know, if love can move a mountain.
someday we'll know, why the sky is blue.
someday we'll know, why I wasnt meant for you.

you had someone better planned ahead for you. I wasn't worthy enough. all the best, :D. duddde... its been tough recent days. revisions piling, tests are charging my direction and problems after problems occured with me and my friends. well, i m not really sure what happened between them. one's struggling for a break up with his girlfriend and another had problem with his parents. oh man, life's been tough for a teenager like us. yup, truely speaking. this is the part we grow most. and in times of trouble, be of good cheer, always. good night people. im off to mugging. heard some really good songs recently, meaningful enough to set people to tears. shall name them sometime when im free ya. laters.

Son By Four - Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry didn't mean to call you
but I couldn't fight it.
I guess I was weak,
couldn't even hide it,
and so I surrendered
just to hear your voice.
Don't know how many times I said
I'm gonna live without you.
And maybe someone else
is standing there beside you,
but there's something, baby,
that you need to know.
That deep inside me,
I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you,
it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasy,
the courage that I need to live,
the air that i breath.
Living without you,
my world's become so empty,
the days are so cold and lonely,
and each night I taste,
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you
I'm feeling better everyday,
that It didn't hurt me
when you walked away.
But to tell you the truth,
I couldn't find my way.
And deep inside me,
I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you,
it's all that I'm asking..

i dont wanna take no chance..

well, today was shag ! went to visit dad again yeah.. great to see him in the pink of health again. suddenly i felt that the bond between my family has grown closer. thats great news to me. yep. anyway, the tubing that was attached to his windpipe is now gone and he can finally speak ! wow, its been a long time since I heard him talk man. on my way back, i saw this book and bought it.. its called "Write It Down, Make It Happen". I like to read inspirational stuffs. yeah.. especially i have in mind whats in place for me. i need this special drive to keep me going on, to give in my best shot. even if no one's supporting me, i'll produce that extraordinary strength to keep myself going strong every single day of my life. im glad i made the first step but right now i've got to study real hard for my tests.. i got to work doubly hard to revise for my modules. i know i've been slacking hardcore. i got too complacent, if theres any results not of my expectation, i brought it all upon myself. but guess what ? i dont think its too late to start now! its never too late. heh. keep me movin'. good night people.