im having chalet later in the day today. but well.. not in the least anticipating about it. so many things happened all of a sudden and i feel so like shit. darn.. i hope i will have a fun time there though. probably i shouldnt think that much. so much things crossed my mind when i was walking home from mak's place. i thought of her again. -_-. yeah her. well, i told myself umpteen times not to but i couldnt. because memories stay in the mind and heart forever. i remembered when my friend told me she had to "behave properly" just to capture my first impressions about her. but u know .. all of a sudden it's like so long ago. everything's been over so so long ago. i missed every single moment out there and i still couldnt get myself back to the reality. the fucky reality. as i was tuning to the radio channels @ 3.17am in the morning i heard a song, it was so so the past. so everything flashed back again. i just cant move on. i hate the situation im in right now. i hate it. im starting to feel that i've no friends around me. everyone's being so selfish. so so selfish. i dont know i think because when people grow, they grow to be more selfish ? thats shit theory but apparently it's happening. you know, i dont like the way im handling life right now. everything's so dead, dry, unhappy. im really unhappy about life but what can i do? i cant even balance my life properly. it's either im too into this or too into that. so many comments from my friends yet i could still behave as if im so right that no one could correct my ways. the way im handling life as it is. oh no.. seriously if i could. i wouldnt want to be me again. i just hope for simplicity in life...

didnt go to sentosa today. i wanted to but i couldnt make it.. :( so sorry to the guys who anticipated that day to come. it was nothing but disappointments.. so tired. had a long day it was like so difficult to spend my day. and so on and so on..

How Did I Fall In Love With You?
Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight


What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight


What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?


Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life


What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,
in love ,
with you?

saw a clip just moments ago. Nicholas Berg was beheaded by the extremists in Iraq. fuck it. it really outraged me to max when i saw that scene. it was brutal. it was cruel. it was an act of a coward. it was sad. when i heard his screams to struggle away from those extremists, i knew his life had to be finished for sure. o.. i hate that. no one's got the right to take away other people's life. he wasnt even a soldier. he was just a civilian. hey.. they are cold blooded creatures. they have no families. no feelings. no life. no love in them. and now all that's in my mind is hatred. i really hate them to the core. no they dont deserve to live in this world. for this i hope justice be served. all i can do is to sit by and do nothing. but then again, i'd really hope and pray that nothing of such would happen to the hostages again. fight for world peace. Where's the love ? dammit.

it's kinda boring to stay at home during the holidays, especially when there's no point to go out. so i'm exactly caught right in the middle of nowhere. i just need some place for me to chill out or something. these days are gettin too dry. i needta get a life. ! im just staring on my lap's screen right now. i have no idea how i can afford to slack my days like that away. still thinking if it's wise to get myself a holiday job to keep myself occupied. heh.

Hoobastank- The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

hi blog, im here. missed me ? haha. alright was being lame. "EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY, FINALLY, CURRENTLY OVER" says me. :P. yeah. they are over. i guess i'd be glad if i would have one A this time round. seriously. hehe. i couldnt expected for more because i didnt put in much effort. well, i guess resolutions werent fufilled but im always optimistic about life. it's not all about grades. it's not all about doing well in papers. its LOVE. yeah baby, whichever loves that comes from whoever is worth your life. at least when u die u know someone in this world cares for you. yep, a phrase which i heard from someone. alright. i'll be back for updates and more more more. im like too much to say but then again i dont know where to start because i dont wanna start with the exam papers. why not i start with what are the plannings ahead for my holidays. i mean after all the muggings i've went through, its time i give myself a break. its time i have a KIT KAT. i must go buy kit kat KUBES tmr. right after swimming at teck's place. cos it's really really really temptin. heh. off i go papers. here i come vacations. :DDDDDDDD nite ppl.