im taking this chance to once again apologise to all the people that ive ever offended in any course whether its deliberate or not.. im sorry man. i know at times i tend to get so hostile towards people because of the stress and stuffs, but then again, this is no excuse at all to vent my anger on you guys. Anyway, i know i do have faults and that i am not perfect. but ive told myself that i'll change for the better towards those conscious mistakes ive been making, in terms of everything. i certainly hope i can do so!
1sts..
haha, last night was my first ever clubbing experience! well, i went with the intention to see what's in there that's making so many of my friends hooked to it. true enough, it was an eye-opener.. haha. then again, i couldnt have imagined myself in there. the only thing i hate about was the smoke man. it really stinks and i have a feeling it's going to drain off my stamina that ive built on..lol. there were people dancing at the dancefloor and stuffs. and we did join in the fun actually. it was really cool. but its just really not a good idea to get hooked on such places because its expensive, okay. Probably its great to just go there like once every few months should be good enough. So friends, you've heard what i have to say! nonetheless, it was a great experience. :)

February...
hehe.. this is my month! but then again, its not a great month for me. because of the so many things that are happening or have happened before. i remember 2004, 21st February, my uncle passed away the day before my birthday. i was greatly saddened by that incident because i couldnt accept the fact that it has happened. i still cant.
next, Valentine's Day! haha.. well, im sure it isnt a great day for anybody single out there. but, im sure The One* will come one day. we just got to wait, lah. although waiting seems forever. hahah.. ive spoken with some of my friends and they felt the way i felt too. cheers, singles swingles.
22nd February, 2001, the happiest day of my life. because something happened. im sure people that are close to me knows about it but i shall not mention it again.. heh.
22nd February, 2004, lost my Nokia 7650, biggest birthday present!
And I really wonder what's going to happen this year, but i think its just gonna be another birthday really. maybe there's no celebration this year, because of the hectic schedule ive been receiving. but i'll try to finish all my stuffs by then in order to have a quiet night at least.
Thats why i say, February is the month that im hating but loving at the same time.. -_-

updates till here, byebye people.

Happy lunar new year everyone! yeah, its the first day of chinese new year today. I remember when i was a little kid, i used to hang around at my grandparent's place for like.. the whole night and the atmosphere over there is always so great that everyone seems so jovial for such a joyous occasion. but as we grew older, things arent how they used to be like. everything's toned down. and everyone seems so serious. and we hardly stayed there for four hours. it's sad, but it's true. just like what that has been going on. :(

goodbye, doesnt mean forever.

i just couldnt get to sleep. so i decided to write up testimonials of my friends and family members.. the people i love and ever loved.

Family...

Dad: i havent seen you for a long time! .. hope you're doing fine out there.. Of course i'll never forget the days we had when I was young. It certainly isnt easy to let all these beautiful memories fade away. who can I honour more than my parents, isnt it. :)

Mum: my greatest love of all time. I just hope that someday i could tell you i love you so much. i have been such an irrational small kid. although sometimes i tend to get so annoyed by what you say or do. I dont mean it. trust me. I still love you as much. you've certainly showered so much care and concern to the 3 of us.. haha.. I love you, man.

Sister: yes, we are more like adults now. right? we don't quarrel as much. we do talk sometimes. but most of the time you arent at home. well, whatever it is, I love you.

Brother: hey, play less and do more studies! afterall, its such an important year for you this year. of course, we quarrel most at home. I just hope that you'll do well in your studies and .. well, soon you'll grow to know there's so much more than playing with computer games. LoL. I love you.

Uncle: although you've passed on. goodbye, doesnt mean forever. remember? Soon it's going to be a year already. Life without you hasnt been great. but i know you are up there in heaven watching over us. :D love you.

GodFamily: well, thanks so so much.. I know i havent been visiting you guys as often as jonathan does but well, its not that i dont want to. its just that my time doesnt permit me to do so.. so i seek forgiveness! thanks for the so many things..

Friends...

Kenneth: one of my best friends out there! although we havent been in the same school, I really appreciate the effort you make to bond the group closer everytime. been such a geat vice-captain for me, although they didnt last forever, but they lasted so long. I could never need to hide what i am thinking inside. because i know there are so many listening ears out there. Needless to mention, our friendship will never, ever end. :D

Jonathan: what a friend indeed! you've been great. although we always had differences. but you've been such a great friend to me. you've been another listening ear. maybe its because that we're in the same college, we got closer. yeah. let us all hope things will go on smoothly as before and that we all can graduate together and stuffs.

Deb: well, you've been such a great, great friend. always and forever.. the only female friend that ive regarded a great friend, because i know i can share my secrets with you. I wouldnt want to deny taking a liking to you. I guess i havent told you all these while before, but then again, we all got to accept that everything is over and that we'll remain as great friends, as always. although i hardly see you as often as before, i know you've been leading such a great and meaningful life. do remember to be less stressful at things because stress doesnt take one anywhere but worse. quit being too busy too! take care!

AvGs: woh, our friendships have certainly gone through so so much. but so many of you have changed. i could hardly recognise. whenever i look at some of you, i could hardly picture the nerdy side of you guys. we had our piece of fun. from pokemon cards, to cs, to soccer even..but everything seems fading. i would hate to say that but i would hate to deny that. people, let's all hope we can all stay as friends forever.

Poly mates: I cannot forget this bunch of friends man.. haha.. they're a group of really fun loving and even such a funny group with benny around. we even have gym lovers like wj and kit.. and a soccer freak like me, wc.. the girls, all so smart ! where in the world guys stand..!! haha.. thanks so much for adding so much fun in my life man.

the list goes on....

I have so many other people to mention here. but it'll take forever if i were to mention every single one of them. its not that you guys arent important. its just that its 3am now...!! haha.. and well, i just wanna say my friends are so equally important.. studies isnt everything. we all need friends need family members to keep our life going. happily. :D everyone take care man...!

February, the month i'd like to love and the month i'd like to hate.

blue is the colour for today. well, today was bad. and true enough it was, i took back my first common test paper and i didnt do well at all. that wasnt the paper i expected to fare badly but, i accepted it anyway. dont know why the whole day didnt feel really good. suddenly im like plunging back to life that was used to be. who cares. anyway, had a reunion dinner with godma after school. and then headed to causeway point to meet lian sheng and guys, because its his birthday today.

whatever it is, im really confused right now. with alot of things. can anybody give me answers to my doubt? argh... i know procrastinating doesnt help. but i cant help but procrastinate.

i just received notification today that im finally heading towards Newcastle on april for my attachment. maybe it's time for me to really relax and forget about things that are happening in singapore. but i wouldnt want to live anywhere other than home forever. i'll miss my family so much.. :(

A day not to be forgotten, even if i would want to...hahah..

suddenly i had this feeling to blog today. seriously felt so. anyway, today was really really funny! i had this appreciating artwork module that required me to go to the Singapore Art Museum to visit artworks of local artists and also Botero's. but well, because i was busy struggling the other project, i managed to get there so late.. that it was a thirty minutes stay at the museum before it actually closes. Apparently, my friend and I stayed in there for a whole 1hr and 45 minutes! guess what.. no one will ever believe what i have to say right here. I WAS TRAPPED INSIDE THE MUSEUM. REALLY. the moment i heard this warning system that tells us that the premise would close in 10 minutes time, i was already making my way out of the place. but then after walking for one round trying to look for the exit, i realised i was walking round and round and round. probably i walked for 20 rounds before realising that We were trapped in there already as the premise have already closed. the security totally so happened to miss us! we couldnt get out of the place!! at all. it totally freaked us out. i finally had to dial 999 for the first time in my life, to seek police help. LOL. well, we had a great laugh there and yeah.. still finding things a little foolish right now. i told my friend we ought to really really be honoured. because to date there was only ONE person to ever get trapped in there.. hahah.. we were the 2nd and the 3rd. cool right? yeah, anyway my friend here declined to be named. so i respect his decision. LOL... after that, had a little walk at bugis and orchard for a little while before he went on and met with his friends and me, took a little stroll at orchard myself and then headed home after that..

reminisence

i dont know whats on my mind now but things of the past keeps coming back now.. i'm starting to have memories of what has happened last time.. yeah.. things that i wouldnt forget my whole life. probably beautiful yet sad memories. but well, told myself to get on with life. and things have really gone well.. everybody's moved on. isnt it? tell me no.
on the surface it seems like things are easy to put behind and look ahead to.. in actual fact, i guess they're not. we just haven't mentioned it. thats why it didnt resurface. but in whatever you do, i just hope that you'd be happy forever. :D

woh, its been a long time since i last blogged. well, recent days have been busy.. real busy. but i still found time to slack though. anyway, been briefed about overseas attachment one week ago. and ive decided i'll probably be heading to Newcastle on April. im actually quite confused. im not really sure what am i going to do over there and stuffs. hope i can get a clearer picture before i submitted my form. putting that aside, I got the tickets for the Tiger Cup final ! woh..... yeah. 1/55000. haha got to thank my friend WC though. not my effort to queue again and again to get so many tickets. lol. been really busy since school reopened. i'm like chasing datelines day after day. screwed up a couple of quiz already man. i think i will not do well this semester, lets hope this perception doesnt stay. haha.. alright.. thats all for my updates. check back. bye

Ryan Cabrera - True

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think I dont look
but deep inside the corner of my mind
Im attached to you

I'm weak it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide
It's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me ?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide it's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so I will not hide It's time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true...