well, exam's finally over !! actually im feeling a little sad. cos im guessing that im not gonna do well this semester.. :( its all just guessing though.. im half conscious right now and im feeling prb a little normal .. yet a little lost in space feel. im quite sad by the fact that im actually leaving overseas for my attachment yea. but well, its just gonna be 5 straight months and i'll be back. i'm gonna make sure that everytghings gotta be alright cos it takes quite alot of money to get there.. okay. ill ba back soon byereee !!

Birthday Entry...

its been days since i last added an entry to my blog. well, today is the day when i finally turned 19. yeah.. its really fast aint it.. ? 1 year flew past without me noticing.. yeah. and this year, its really special. because i planned not to celebrate it. partially, its because of the piles of projects that im having and on the other hand, its really up to personal reasons yeah. im truely sorry to the peeps that have celebrated my birthday with me before. but hope you guys understand!
anyway, putting all aside, i believe its time i paid tribute to my uncle. its one year already huh.. everythings fine for me. im 19 this year! i hope i'll be up to another level in terms of maturity. and i guess i will. im turning independant already. next year im 20, and its really a "wow" age for me isnt it? But.. growing up is just a journey in life..! everyone has to go through someday. its just that ive been here faster than some.. yeah ? and that what's important is the maturity. i will. i have. yes, i am.

wishes...

well, time for wishes! of course, firstly i would like to wish that every family member and friends of mine be happy and healthy.. and leading a fulfilling life! secondly, i wish that the people that i hold dearly all my life be happy in whatever they do and too letting them know that im all out to support whatever their decision is and hope they'll do the same to me too. :D
for myself, i'll just hope everything gets well this semester, and i hope that life in uk will be easy to adapt. afterall, im gonna spend half of my 19th year over there.. heh..

im really glad to receive messages from friends wishing me a happy birthday. im sure i'll be really happy today.. :)

alright, for the not so fun part now. im heading to rehearse on my presentation now! so, i'll sign off for now.. ! bye peeps.

what a day! .. didnt have much sleep last night and as a result, today i went to school feeling lethargic all over man. but then again i managed to complete this long day.. haha..

we ALL know its valentine's day today..

made a trip to causeway point to get my binding stuffs just now and.. wow.. almost everybody is with a partner ahaha.. and i think i was left stranded in the mall. lol.. but well, this year is just gonna be another year and this day is just gonna be another day for me. i've got projects to do, and i've got a test coming up tomorrow and i guess it's really just the right day to keep me so occupied la. im afraid i might just get affected by this occasion, haha.. :D

to all the couples out there.. Happy Valentine's Day!.. and well, not forgetting my single friends out there.. hmm.. Happy Valentine's Day to u guys as well :)

Okay, im really tired! i need to rest argh.

And well, this ive got my blog's song changed. dedicated to this special person la. well, that's the least i could do for such a day like this.. i really hope u dont mind.. yeah.. :)

happy valentine's day :)

im taking this chance to once again apologise to all the people that ive ever offended in any course whether its deliberate or not.. im sorry man. i know at times i tend to get so hostile towards people because of the stress and stuffs, but then again, this is no excuse at all to vent my anger on you guys. Anyway, i know i do have faults and that i am not perfect. but ive told myself that i'll change for the better towards those conscious mistakes ive been making, in terms of everything. i certainly hope i can do so!
1sts..
haha, last night was my first ever clubbing experience! well, i went with the intention to see what's in there that's making so many of my friends hooked to it. true enough, it was an eye-opener.. haha. then again, i couldnt have imagined myself in there. the only thing i hate about was the smoke man. it really stinks and i have a feeling it's going to drain off my stamina that ive built on..lol. there were people dancing at the dancefloor and stuffs. and we did join in the fun actually. it was really cool. but its just really not a good idea to get hooked on such places because its expensive, okay. Probably its great to just go there like once every few months should be good enough. So friends, you've heard what i have to say! nonetheless, it was a great experience. :)

February...
hehe.. this is my month! but then again, its not a great month for me. because of the so many things that are happening or have happened before. i remember 2004, 21st February, my uncle passed away the day before my birthday. i was greatly saddened by that incident because i couldnt accept the fact that it has happened. i still cant.
next, Valentine's Day! haha.. well, im sure it isnt a great day for anybody single out there. but, im sure The One* will come one day. we just got to wait, lah. although waiting seems forever. hahah.. ive spoken with some of my friends and they felt the way i felt too. cheers, singles swingles.
22nd February, 2001, the happiest day of my life. because something happened. im sure people that are close to me knows about it but i shall not mention it again.. heh.
22nd February, 2004, lost my Nokia 7650, biggest birthday present!
And I really wonder what's going to happen this year, but i think its just gonna be another birthday really. maybe there's no celebration this year, because of the hectic schedule ive been receiving. but i'll try to finish all my stuffs by then in order to have a quiet night at least.
Thats why i say, February is the month that im hating but loving at the same time.. -_-

updates till here, byebye people.

Happy lunar new year everyone! yeah, its the first day of chinese new year today. I remember when i was a little kid, i used to hang around at my grandparent's place for like.. the whole night and the atmosphere over there is always so great that everyone seems so jovial for such a joyous occasion. but as we grew older, things arent how they used to be like. everything's toned down. and everyone seems so serious. and we hardly stayed there for four hours. it's sad, but it's true. just like what that has been going on. :(

goodbye, doesnt mean forever.

i just couldnt get to sleep. so i decided to write up testimonials of my friends and family members.. the people i love and ever loved.

Family...

Dad: i havent seen you for a long time! .. hope you're doing fine out there.. Of course i'll never forget the days we had when I was young. It certainly isnt easy to let all these beautiful memories fade away. who can I honour more than my parents, isnt it. :)

Mum: my greatest love of all time. I just hope that someday i could tell you i love you so much. i have been such an irrational small kid. although sometimes i tend to get so annoyed by what you say or do. I dont mean it. trust me. I still love you as much. you've certainly showered so much care and concern to the 3 of us.. haha.. I love you, man.

Sister: yes, we are more like adults now. right? we don't quarrel as much. we do talk sometimes. but most of the time you arent at home. well, whatever it is, I love you.

Brother: hey, play less and do more studies! afterall, its such an important year for you this year. of course, we quarrel most at home. I just hope that you'll do well in your studies and .. well, soon you'll grow to know there's so much more than playing with computer games. LoL. I love you.

Uncle: although you've passed on. goodbye, doesnt mean forever. remember? Soon it's going to be a year already. Life without you hasnt been great. but i know you are up there in heaven watching over us. :D love you.

GodFamily: well, thanks so so much.. I know i havent been visiting you guys as often as jonathan does but well, its not that i dont want to. its just that my time doesnt permit me to do so.. so i seek forgiveness! thanks for the so many things..

Friends...

Kenneth: one of my best friends out there! although we havent been in the same school, I really appreciate the effort you make to bond the group closer everytime. been such a geat vice-captain for me, although they didnt last forever, but they lasted so long. I could never need to hide what i am thinking inside. because i know there are so many listening ears out there. Needless to mention, our friendship will never, ever end. :D

Jonathan: what a friend indeed! you've been great. although we always had differences. but you've been such a great friend to me. you've been another listening ear. maybe its because that we're in the same college, we got closer. yeah. let us all hope things will go on smoothly as before and that we all can graduate together and stuffs.

Deb: well, you've been such a great, great friend. always and forever.. the only female friend that ive regarded a great friend, because i know i can share my secrets with you. I wouldnt want to deny taking a liking to you. I guess i havent told you all these while before, but then again, we all got to accept that everything is over and that we'll remain as great friends, as always. although i hardly see you as often as before, i know you've been leading such a great and meaningful life. do remember to be less stressful at things because stress doesnt take one anywhere but worse. quit being too busy too! take care!

AvGs: woh, our friendships have certainly gone through so so much. but so many of you have changed. i could hardly recognise. whenever i look at some of you, i could hardly picture the nerdy side of you guys. we had our piece of fun. from pokemon cards, to cs, to soccer even..but everything seems fading. i would hate to say that but i would hate to deny that. people, let's all hope we can all stay as friends forever.

Poly mates: I cannot forget this bunch of friends man.. haha.. they're a group of really fun loving and even such a funny group with benny around. we even have gym lovers like wj and kit.. and a soccer freak like me, wc.. the girls, all so smart ! where in the world guys stand..!! haha.. thanks so much for adding so much fun in my life man.

the list goes on....

I have so many other people to mention here. but it'll take forever if i were to mention every single one of them. its not that you guys arent important. its just that its 3am now...!! haha.. and well, i just wanna say my friends are so equally important.. studies isnt everything. we all need friends need family members to keep our life going. happily. :D everyone take care man...!

February, the month i'd like to love and the month i'd like to hate.