i guess alot of things are just meant to be. it's been months since i last updated this blog. because life as a cadet certainly doesnt permit, especially when you get outfield exercises one after another, back to back. but now, here i am again, free and easy. why? because i just got out-of-course. yeah, its my knee. doctor said it was a meniscal tear, and i can't continue. i guess that's about it. it's been about a month already. the pain has subsided but i know there's still a problem with it because i still can't get back my full range of motion. im going to see the specialist again on the 18th, we'll see how it goes. but it might be a surgery, from what i know.

ive given a thought on recoursing, but... i wont be able to do so until i regain full fitness. giving up officership certainly has been tough. i took a long time before making such a decision. but you know, it's my life we're talking about. i missed all the times we had together. the 66/06. it couldnt have been any better. you guys rocks. it's been an irony, because a week before i was put out of course, i got my platoon best plaque. i thought it could be my driving force to keep me going. but the doctor said no. it's harmful to me in the long run. and yes, i havent regretted making this decision. because afterall, i know my worth. this is how far i have walked.

im sorry guys, but .. we can't commission together anymore.

i was browsing all my friend's blog. then all of a sudden i remember, oh yeah i haven't updated mine for a long time.


i certainly miss my civilian life.



argh.

Again, I'm back. you know what? I read about my friend's life and i realise something in common about Singapore. It's so fast-paced. Of course it's good in some sense but it's got its fair share of cons.

Life in there isn't any different. we do things so fast that sometimes we do not even have time to catch a breather. i guess it's a little bad for a learning environment. but no one actually cares.

I'm having this morale fluctuation thing going on in me. I guess all my mates do feel it that way too. well well. Life goes on.

240+ days to the great day.

Hey guys, Merry Xmas and a Happy year 2007!

I know this came abit too late for the Xmas.. but well. I didn't have time to update my stuffs man.

I know alot is at stake. I know the sacrifice is humongous. But since I'm at it, I need to look forward to it.

It's been a long time, I guess im missing the civillian life out there. Friends, its time all you people motivate me to keep me going because i dont know how long i can last.

I think i can. If i stop thinking about it. But if there's something good to look forward to in bunk, I'll be glad. not for now. so, i shall continue searching for that something good.

life as a cadet isnt great at all, we all go through turnouts. its driving me nuts. well well, time to book in now.. Happy 2007, i hope.

5th of December 2006 - The day I graduated as a Private. I will always remember.

Today, I got news of my posting.

It was as expected, although not the one that I wanted. I was, to a little extent, down.

We had our platoon gathering at Marina Steamboat. Everyone had loads of fun simply having dinner, chatting with our bunk mates and playing pool.

Then Sir gave a piece of advice to us, which I think have really brought me to another level of maturity.

I guess whatever that was given to us, we should accept it. We should too give our very best and endure the pain that, undoubtedly, is going to come to us, whether physically or mentally.

Just like the yam-seng we always do. I will always do my very best. Gotta live up to it.

To all my platoon/bunk mates, we all went through tough times together. we all made it. looking ahead, to many of us, we've got a greater mountain to climb. let us all do it once again. be it with or without the same mates we have. what's important is the journey. let's all enjoy it and not sulk about it. we will always do our very best!

To my commanders, you all deserve all the credit that we are here. i could not think of a better idea to thank you guys enough. but, you all have been great. respect.

i shall not sulk. we must all pull through.

look, it's 25th November of year 2006. it seems that another year is about to end, and we're approaching a new year. time certainly flies when you're enjoying it.

strictly speaking, it's another 10 more days before i finally pass out of recruit life and graduate as a private. im not exactly being too anxious about that day because it also signifies that im going into another new environment that im not familiar with.
i guess it's human nature to not feel as comfortable in a strange environment. but im sure things are going to change.

i'm going to say that this recruit life was so much of a blessing because nobody felt left out and we all enjoyed our days in camp. learnt many stuffs and really, at this point in time, is where all the major tests come in. im so going to do well for it. it's a personal achievement afterall.

it seems that the term "graduation" often brings in mixed feelings. but i guess we all have to go through this several times in our lifetime. it's time to learn to get used to it.

for all the friends i've made in these 2 months, you guys have been great.

It's been over a month of life being a soldier for the nation. how does it feel? great in many ways and its certainly made me lots of friends and gained lots of "out-of-this-world" experience. Lol.

I think im quite lucky to be in P Coy, they say it's known for its welfare. but it does have its fair share of tough trainings. trust me on that.

anyways, ive got with me lots of great section mates and i think they're quite a fun batch of people. to me, i think it's important that we all click.

my buddy is a great guy, he's always so quick in what he's doing (not that im slow). LOL..
we went through all that shit in that 7 days field camp. heavenly.

in a matter of weeks we'll all go through that recruit phase and be a true blue Private. okay, still not very impressive.

but i think, no matter where you go, it's one thing that i'm here for in army. and that is to make more friends and to enjoy the tough trainings together. i dont want to be giving model answers like defending the nation because it's obvious that's what we are doing. haha.

field camp was an eye-opener.

it was where i experienced the lowest level of living condition ive experienced so far. i can't believe we dug. but that's what we did.

we ate cold food for almost every meal. lunch, dinner and dessert came in packets. and the food that came out looks mashed.

we crawled on mud, something ive never done in my life.

we bathe only once in seven days!

but on hindsight, it was quite interesting. everyone seemed closer to each other after we came through that 7 days of field camp.

for many things that we do, we do it for a reason and we learn from our ways. i've learnt to appreciate the things around me man.

at the end of the day, home is still the best place to be. so i've learnt to cherish life outside!

home sweet home. muahaha..