I just want to tell you that even if the world comes crumbling down, we will not be afraid.

Randy Pausch says:


"I really want to be happy, and I really want to be happy with you. But if I cannot be happy with you. I will have to learn to be happy without you."


amazing.

i think i know now. thank you. =)

it's times like this that you turn back to the same old reliable confidant. you want to make your feelings known. you want it reciprocated. but you cannot demand for it.

maybe you don't feel safe. maybe its a lesson learnt. maybe there's just nothing. naught.

in a state of confusion. everything seems implied. no assurance. it doesn't feel right. but there's no right, to demand for a right.


it's fine. everything is fine. maybe you should do what you always do. maybe the time just isn't right.


if it's the latter, i'll accept. the former, i'll accept it too.

thinking, too much.

haha..haha..

wow, now i know i haven't been updating for a really really long time now... well, it's December the 15th of 2007 now. guess what? i'm finally going to pass out of OCS as a commissioned officer today.

oh yeah, more responsibilities and stuff. hope i'll be able to cope out there. i've no absolute idea what is expected of me out there. the world seems so uncertain now. but hey, no worries about that.

on another note, i kinda miss life in OCS. i bet all other bunks out there do not have the kind of bunk we have here. there's even internet now for me to update my blog. goodness.

i'll definitely miss all my instructors who have been with us all these while, supporting us, giving us encouragement, being such a good friend and teachers. for me, being in OCS definitely means something different. afterall, ive been here 3 months longer than the rest. i know this place inside out! haha. i'm missing my Charlie instructors, not to forget the short Hotel stint, and now finally the Foxtrot ones. im missing my 66/06 friends, but im like joining you guys in the officer's corp today. but as a 67/07.

theres so much i want to say, theres so much attachment i feel for this place words just cannot explain. i must say ive had such wonderful people that made everything worthwhile.

thanks guys.

alright, as promised, i have once again done myself proud.

yes, i got my badge. my hard earned badge. it was very tough. very very tough.

on a side note, i'm very sad as well.

you all might have heard about the passing of CPT Ho.

he's such a wonderful PC to Foxtrot. the day we completed our exercise, we found out about his death. we were all shell-shocked. i kept asking myself why would such a tragic happen to him. he was an amazing PC to all of us in Foxtrot. i can't believe this is happening.. and i still can't. but i know he's resting elsewhere in a place better than earth.

rest in peace, cpt ho. we will miss you..

i can't believe time flew on me. i mean, it's been 2 months since i last updated afterall. so many things happened, just too many. i've recoursed, 8 weeks into it, and now, im flying off to Brunei in.. god, 5 hrs time. i'm so going to do my best. but sometimes, luck comes into place. sometimes, determination of your team comes into place. ultimately, alot of factors come into place. But nevertheless, everyone is hoping to do so well in Brunei. I really hope i would, really.

i need to hit the ground running.


and i'm leaving on a jet plane. i know when i'll be back again. ha. take care peeps. bon voyage to me.