i dont wanna take no chance..

well, today was shag ! went to visit dad again yeah.. great to see him in the pink of health again. suddenly i felt that the bond between my family has grown closer. thats great news to me. yep. anyway, the tubing that was attached to his windpipe is now gone and he can finally speak ! wow, its been a long time since I heard him talk man. on my way back, i saw this book and bought it.. its called "Write It Down, Make It Happen". I like to read inspirational stuffs. yeah.. especially i have in mind whats in place for me. i need this special drive to keep me going on, to give in my best shot. even if no one's supporting me, i'll produce that extraordinary strength to keep myself going strong every single day of my life. im glad i made the first step but right now i've got to study real hard for my tests.. i got to work doubly hard to revise for my modules. i know i've been slacking hardcore. i got too complacent, if theres any results not of my expectation, i brought it all upon myself. but guess what ? i dont think its too late to start now! its never too late. heh. keep me movin'. good night people.

hey, suddenly today i felt very inspired by life. i've come to a decision that i shall work hard to improve my life and of course to make my life more fulfilling in that sense. of course, i wont be an empty vessel.. hehe well well, we shall see !

oh my goodness, darn shag, tired, stressed. i've been slacking my days away.. piles and piles of homework i have not done, and i got no drive to do them at all. now it's like piled till maximum liao. my tests are around the corner and everything's just not done ! now feeling the impact of the pile man. father's still in hospital and im going there after sch everytime and now all my works undone. slowly im beginning to not understand a single thing about my lectures, i feel very useless in that sense. but i know this is not the time to give up, this is on the other hand, a drive to keep me going on. so i'll just spend the nite rushing MOLs.. darnnn.. so much so much .. i owe teacher a revision. and upon this friday.. it'll be 2. oh my oh my.. alrite bought a soccer boots today, so nice. was like 100 but i love it. its worth it. my old one kind of like splitted.. haha.. anyway.. i hope i can do well with that boots. lastly, i think its time for me to say goodbye, because more penning means more slacking and more piling.. heh.. good nite.

yoo........... wow, its like i havent been here for days ya. .. right. today was ... SLACK. i was watching soccer on TV all the way and also try to download some movies from IRC .. yep .. after all the work, i managed to get myself, HONEY. yep. the dance movie, at this point of time, i completed watching Disc 1 of it .. then i went on to watch soccer Match.. well well.. guuuud. MAN U is back, they have made a comeback, and i think Arsenal's going down, although they won this match. haha.. hmm earlier this day, i went to visit dad. it seems that his health is on the pink soon. everythings going fine, and if im not wrong, he should be discharging anytime this week or next. yep, was relieved to recieve this piece of news. yup, tmr's soccer match day, wondering how is it going to be. yea, got so PISSED off with my friends in the team. they dont treat this as a team, full of excuses to give them a chance to escape. whats the point ? i told them so clearly that if you are not interested then u can just get the hell out of the team because no one needs anyone of u. we work as a team, not individually, so if u think u r that important, maybe u can leave. yes, this is not to anyone, but this is to everyone, including me in the team. well, i just hate their reactions about matches, afterall, it should have been fun and not FORCED, right ? sigh..... thats the worst of today, anyway now chatting with jonathan, and of course im abit shag now. the moment i close my eyes i feel like falling into a deep sleeeeeep. .. . . . good nite peepz. i w i l l b b a c k

sweet memories are kept in the stars on the sky, those of which unforgettable. a phrase from a song. i love it so much. it feels so real. i was chatting with her. it wasnt the same anymore. now i truely understand whats crush. yes. i ought to accept the fact that everything is over. she knows that whatever relationship i've gone through in life means alot to me. and that it all isnt about forgetting in a snap of a finger's time. i missed the days we were together. the way we chatted with each other. but learn to take things in my stride. just let it be. im in no mood to sleep already. im sleepy, yet i dont feel like sleeping. i hate myself this way. i shouldnt get so emotional. am i right or wrong to feel this way? or is she wrong to treat me this way? its still leaving a dilemma in a confused guy.

is the world safe to live in anymore ? what came a shock to de world again was the terrorists attack on Madrid, killing hundreds. u felt the lost of lives ? each of us ought to have the right to live on, no one deserves to end the life of somebody's. yeah, thats what shook me today. saw the papers few days back, initially it was nothing. then came grief. who cares whos responsible for them, the terrorists just suck. poor mankind.