today, i finally had a taste of what pre ns depression is like. it is devastating. i cant imagine my civilian life will be gone in a matter of 10 hours time. but well, i try to look on the brighter side of life. wahah.

i went to visit lots of people this week, namely my grandparents, my close friends and all. had a great chat with a number of people on MSN. it feels great that many gave me their well wishes, in return i gave them mine too.

but, for 2 years, i would certainly miss having weekdays at home. now, i only have weekends to myself. it seems that a whole lot will be taken away from me.

that's the price to pay to defend your country. haha. i guess it's fair enough.

from tomorrow onwards, i shall be a RECRUIT!

oh yeah, this blog i've kept for 3 years. yes, 3 years! can't imagine it lasted so long... maybe 2 years aren't that long afterall.. haha..

take care people. see you guys soon.

AGES... since i last updated. i have been pretty lazy and busy at the same time. *excuses*.

but here i am, doing my update once again. ive been working with the IMF, you know, the Singapore 2006 event for the past 2 months. things went pretty well and of course, im officially a retiree as of 24th September 2006. yeah.

what lies ahead. National Service. all my friends started to enlist on June, July and September. guess what, it's my turn now, finally. im a week away from serving the nation. i cant say that im running away from it. in fact, im mentally and physically prepared to go through this. so, i have been rather forward-looking.

i guess the pre-NS depression hasn't hit me like it did to all my other friends. muahha..

ive alrdy gotten all my stuffs ready for army. and i guess the civilian people can't get to see me for a while.

here i come, regimental life.

for me, it's okay. because i do not have much commitments and entanglements on the outside. so, it's really time to go ahead and look forward and no where else. people, be proud of the NSmen. they protect your property, remember? :P cya fellas

hi

an epiphany about life.

it's not easy to tread.

i need to make decisions already.

happy mother's day.

i flared up today. sigh.

things aren't as good as it seems.

i failed miserably.

can i turn back time.

im feeling down. leave me alone.

thank you.

Cheeh..

one whole month of no-show. now im back.

this month's gotta be a turning point. i've decided to quit my job in 17 days' time and this certainly calls for a celebration!

so to reward myself, 5days trip to taiwan - taipei!

yep. departure

24052006
0810
changi airport

we're backpacking!.. cool. havent done that since i came back from my attachment. im expecting something great. peeps, if you need me to get anything, drop me a msg, yeah.

anyways, been in alot of thoughts lately and things haven't been all in tip-top condition. somehow i feel we're all ageing. not that.

the past 3 days were spent on gatherings.
i met up with the 1E4s. yeah, my secondary school class. we were all chatting about who's who and who's with who. and all of the funny teachers we had. reminiscent.

it's really amazing to still have friends that we knew since tender 13, sitting down together to catch up with our lives. gotta cherish.

so yesterday, i met up with kin wai, deb and shuxiang. everyone's changed and moved on. well, almost. it was great. and i totally had no clue that it was their friendship day for the 5th year running. it was their day.

we had different "cliques" during our secondary school days. no wonder i felt like a misfit when they chatted about another secondary school life, in the same school.

but it was fruitful, because all i had in mind was to meet up with them. just to catch up with them and see how things are going on in their life. it seems that they're all fine!

to think i only had like 2 hours of sleep before it's time i reported to work. and the rest of the day felt terrible because my eyes were as lethargic.


good night.

been a week since i last wrote an entry to my piece of paper.

probably i was too occupied with work and stuffs. no worries.

anyways, received NTU's letter of acceptance on friday, i got into Environmental Engineering for direct entry into the 2nd year. it was my 2nd choice. felt disappointed but i have already expected this would be it. but i'll give myself 2 years to think about the direction in life that im going to take.

still waiting for NUS' letter.

had a great night last night with the YEP bbq gathering with the peeps. we haven't seen alot of us for ages and its been fantastic just to sit down and have a chat about life, about the decisions that we have to make as we move forward in our life.

of course, we reminiscent about stuffs that happened along the way. and really, the YEP trip to Vietnam was one of most memorable event that i had in my polytechnic life.

we all have our own problems and it is really up to us to decide how we should handle things. i hope everyone would be mature in their life decisions and no regrets in what they make.

for myself, ive been in alot of problems too. You know what i mean. i can see myself avoiding, which is so bad. but i havent had the courage to face it. it's entirely my fault and i take the blame for it.

maybe i need some time to be alone and let me have a clear look at whats going on. dont worry because im taking things seriously. but all i need is time.
im sorry.
take care.