It's been awhile since we've got together. Oh well, I don't exactly know if we're together but it certainly feels so.
It's bittersweet. plenty of lovely memories that I fear wouldn't last. There are plenty of obstacles that I fear I wouldn't past.
I hope everything would turn out fine. just like her. I love her.
31.5.09
14.2.09
31.1.09
30.1.09
it's times like this that you turn back to the same old reliable confidant. you want to make your feelings known. you want it reciprocated. but you cannot demand for it.
maybe you don't feel safe. maybe its a lesson learnt. maybe there's just nothing. naught.
in a state of confusion. everything seems implied. no assurance. it doesn't feel right. but there's no right, to demand for a right.
it's fine. everything is fine. maybe you should do what you always do. maybe the time just isn't right.
if it's the latter, i'll accept. the former, i'll accept it too.
thinking, too much.
haha..haha..
maybe you don't feel safe. maybe its a lesson learnt. maybe there's just nothing. naught.
in a state of confusion. everything seems implied. no assurance. it doesn't feel right. but there's no right, to demand for a right.
it's fine. everything is fine. maybe you should do what you always do. maybe the time just isn't right.
if it's the latter, i'll accept. the former, i'll accept it too.
thinking, too much.
haha..haha..
15.12.07
wow, now i know i haven't been updating for a really really long time now... well, it's December the 15th of 2007 now. guess what? i'm finally going to pass out of OCS as a commissioned officer today.
oh yeah, more responsibilities and stuff. hope i'll be able to cope out there. i've no absolute idea what is expected of me out there. the world seems so uncertain now. but hey, no worries about that.
on another note, i kinda miss life in OCS. i bet all other bunks out there do not have the kind of bunk we have here. there's even internet now for me to update my blog. goodness.
i'll definitely miss all my instructors who have been with us all these while, supporting us, giving us encouragement, being such a good friend and teachers. for me, being in OCS definitely means something different. afterall, ive been here 3 months longer than the rest. i know this place inside out! haha. i'm missing my Charlie instructors, not to forget the short Hotel stint, and now finally the Foxtrot ones. im missing my 66/06 friends, but im like joining you guys in the officer's corp today. but as a 67/07.
theres so much i want to say, theres so much attachment i feel for this place words just cannot explain. i must say ive had such wonderful people that made everything worthwhile.
thanks guys.
oh yeah, more responsibilities and stuff. hope i'll be able to cope out there. i've no absolute idea what is expected of me out there. the world seems so uncertain now. but hey, no worries about that.
on another note, i kinda miss life in OCS. i bet all other bunks out there do not have the kind of bunk we have here. there's even internet now for me to update my blog. goodness.
i'll definitely miss all my instructors who have been with us all these while, supporting us, giving us encouragement, being such a good friend and teachers. for me, being in OCS definitely means something different. afterall, ive been here 3 months longer than the rest. i know this place inside out! haha. i'm missing my Charlie instructors, not to forget the short Hotel stint, and now finally the Foxtrot ones. im missing my 66/06 friends, but im like joining you guys in the officer's corp today. but as a 67/07.
theres so much i want to say, theres so much attachment i feel for this place words just cannot explain. i must say ive had such wonderful people that made everything worthwhile.
thanks guys.